Un-inspired

If you don't see a photo; I am sorry about that, settings have changed and I am having problems in understandin how to use the changes.  I am sorry if this took me a couple of months to write on my blog.  Lately, for the past two or three months, I have been so un-inspired and have not had the chance to get any writing down, especially on my blog.  I have been out of ideas and there is a poem/writing that wants to come out, but it has been rather difficult to get out.  Outside of one friend, here in Layton, Utah and my friends in New Mexico and Texas and my family that is related to me by blood and marriage, I had realize that I need to find a way to get back to my home state.  That might be the only way I can get my inspiration back.  But I don't know how soon I can get back to New Mexico?  The only question I have for a few other friends here in the State of Utah, is what I don't understand it that I have been so nice to them, given them gifts and such, invite them over for dinner and except for one, two always turns me down for dinner.  Sometimes, I also feel reject by who I call my friends, say one wrong thing or do something wrong and guess, they reject me, make me feel like I don't belong.  Oh, yeah, that also reminds me, I better be careful what I say on my blog, but than again, this is my blog and I should be allowed to say what I want!! 

Well, I am very un-inspired and I know and hopefully, some of my family and friends will try to give me ideas and help me get my inspiration back.  In the meantime, again sorry the photo may not show, but at least I got this posting out and I will try to post once a week, maybe twice, unsure!!

Love Your friend and family,
Sara M. M.

Trying to get good ideas

Well, I am stuck!!  I have been trying to come up with some good ideas to write in my blog, but I just cannot come up with some ideas.  Maybe, my followers/friends can send me some ideas by e-mail or FB.  My idea, that I have is to go back to some of my writings from High School and College and rewrite and post those for a while until I can come up with something else.  So far, I do have something exciting happening, but I don't want to post it just yet until I am done, because it might be in parts for a while.  So, hopefully, I will come up with something on my own or if anyone can send me ideas, I would love that!!  Well, Thanks for reading and if making any comments, thans very much.

Love Your Friend,
Sara M. M.

Happy St. Patrick's Day

Today is St. Patrick's Day. So, to all of my friends, I thought this was a good day to send out some well wishes to everyone today!! Here in the State of Utah, as of today, from what I heard in Salt Lake City, there is a St. Patrick's Day parade going on. But at the same time the weather, is going to be a bit windy and in the 40's. So, hopefully the wind won't put a damper on the parade. I wish not only for me to share this on FB, I can share it with someone else, but I still cannot contact that certain person. It would be nice if my special friend knew that I was thinking of him and that I hope he has a good day and evening and that I wish him a Happy St. Patrick's Day!! Well, my friends, Happy St. Patricks Day and I do wish everyone of my friends to have a good day and evening. Don't forget to wear green, so you don't get pinched today.

Love Your Friend,

Sara M. M.

Lost Friend 3

I hope this is a good picture to part 3 of my postings to my title blogs of Lost Friend!! I keeping wishing that someday my friend will come back to me, will reaccept me back on his FB friend list and refriend me. I miss my friend and even if I don't have too much to talk about with him, I miss his postings that deals with a few politics. I would love to contact him and send him out my postings of my blogs, so he will know that I am still thinking of him. I also want him to know how much I am hurting, because without his friendship it makes it really hard to tell him that I still care for him as a friend. Like another friend that I have, I feel like I have become rather close to him and sometimes I almost feel like I have some things in common with him. Well, I will still keeping hoping and wishing that my friend will come back to me someday and accept me back on his FB friend list. I know I cannot send this to him, but I do miss my FB friend, he is a real gentleman and a good person.

Love,

Sara M. M.

Lost Friend 2

O.K., my last blog posting may not made a bit of sense, but I just could not add names at all to it. So, here are a few questions to my friends on FB, I know I heard from at least two friends, but how about the rest of you!! My questions are: If I sent any of you male or female a wrong messaage by mistake, would you allow me the time to explain my message? Second, after I explain my message, would you block me from your FB friend list for sending the wrong message out to you by mistake?

I hope that helps frome my previous blog that I posted!! Thanks everyone.

Love Your Friend,

Sara M. M.

Lost Friend

We all heard of loosing our friends for some reason or another. Our friends that we loose can be friends from high school, our parents, grandparents, brother/sister, boy/girlfriend and yes our spouse. Also our friends can be animals to us, such as a dog, cat, birt, etc., that has ben in the family for several years. When we loose a friend, we loose them do to death or loosing them by not keeping in touch with them. But in all my life, I have never heard of loosing a friend, because of one small mistake that was made. When I get into this story, I hope most of my friends will understand why I am letting this out and that what one of my friends did to me was a bit unfair. Also, if any of my other friends might understand this message, it would be nice for some of you to make comments back and another friend to help me out by trying to talk to this person who was unfair to me. Well, here it goes and hopefully it will make sense!! Names will be left out, for protection and to explain this story to a few of my friends.

On Monday night 2/13/13 to Tuesday morning 2/14/12, about 12:47 am, I was up a bit late, not feeling very well and not sleeping very well. I decided to send out messages on FB and by e-mail to let a few of my friends on how I was doing and what has been happening with me. Some of my friends don't have FB, so e-mail was one of the options that I went with for a while. Now with me being up so late, there are times I will say something that comes out wrong or I will send the wrong message out. (Curse me for staying up late and writing so late). I guess when one is tired and not feeling very good, your mind will not think straight at all. In one of my messages, I mention that I have certain feelings, but when I was pouring out my feelings to one of my friends, I accidently sent the message to the wrong FB friend. I didn't realize that I sent the wrong message to my FB friend, when the next morning my FB friend wrote to me and told me that I was going to be blocked from his FB page. I tried apologizing and explaining to him that the message was an accident and my feelings was meant for someone else. But my FB friend would not let me talk it out or let me explain what really happened. I even tried sending e-mails and letters explaining and that I thought that it was unfair to block me and not reading most of my letters and e-mails at all. As a result of my FB friend blocking me and wanting to call off the friendship, I spent the weekend crying my eyes out. I really tried apologizing for my mistake and asking for forgiveness and asking my FB friend to unblock me, re-add me back on as a friend, but still refused. I did admit to who I thought was my FB friend that I made a mistake and that I sent the wrong message out me explaining, but as said before my friend still refused.

I really would like my friend back, but because this friend does not want to have any contact with me at all and I cannot contact this friend anymore, I cannot talk to my friend or tell how I felt, that my friend was unfair to me. I don't know if this blog makes any sense at all. Right because of what my friend did to me, I feel hurt and pain. Maybe, I can have another FB friend of mine who I keep in constant contact with by FB and e-mail to send this message to the friend that blocked me. I need the help, I want my friend back and I need to talk to my FB friend. I want this friend to know that what I did, I did not mean it at all and it was really a mistake. Also, I want my friend to know that if the situation was reverse, I would never block my friend and I would allow an explaintion for what was said.

My eyes are working very well, but in my mind I am typing this blog blind and having a hard time in trying make some sense out of this blog. I am sorry if this is not making sense, but I cannot put names in this story. If there was another way, I would rewrite this blog and have it make sense, but there is not another way for me to really explain.

Well, if I left some things out, I am sorry and please forgive me. The picture, I thought was a good one, for it does match my title.

Love Your Friend,

Sara M. M.

The starting of a Holiday Season!

Normally, I usually have a well thought out writing for my blog. But do to the fact that I am running out of time, I should just flow with this one for today is November 1, 2011. Hard to believe that we have this month and next month before we see another year come to an end and getting ourselves ready to start another year. About two or three years ago I started a project with my blog, I still continue with that project even if noone has time to respond back or make any comments at all. It would be nice for some of my friends to respond back or make comments to some of my blogs. I am trying to get the holiday season going by doing writings in my blog everyday. I will switch pictures off and on using pictures of Our dog Stubby and our cat Lucky. The picture you will see is Stubby and Lucky; Stubby is an inheritance dog, was Grandma Radford's (Frank's grandmother) dog. Apparently Grandma Radford is not allowed to have Stubby anymore, because Grandma Radford is unable to handle Stubby. For a while Stubyy was with Frank's parents for a while, but that did not work out, which also has a story behind that, but will not mention it. So we ended up with Stubby and he has been a blessing to our family. Stubby is a Boston Terrier (Spelling) full breed, he is about 8 to 9 years old and Frank and I love him very much. He gets along with our cat Lucky who we have had for a while, I actually have had Lucky two years before Frank and I married. Lucky is 16 years old, he does now have Kidney disease, but I for see Lucky living a little bit longer, hopefully up to about 20 to 23 years old. Some would say that we have many things to be Thankful, for being that this month is Thanksgiving and we should find many things to be Thankful. As of right now, I want to say that I don't have a lot of things to be Thankful for this year, because I sometimes feel that a few items were taken away from me and I have been feeling very depressed and disconnected. Where the depression is coming from or how that is going on is unknown, there are a number of reasons for the depression, some could be health related or something else. A part of me will not discuss that for awhile. The disconnected, even though I have two pets, I don't have children, I miss my friends and family in New Mexico and even more so, because I now don't have any way to get back home to see them. Sure, I do have some friends here in Utah, but they don't take the time to come see me, call me, write to me or even send me a message back on FB, my friends here in Utah is too, too busy. I know they have jobs, school and a life, but it would be nice for them to aknowledge that I am alive and every once in a while to at least call me, write to me or even send me a message back on FB or even come see me sometimes. I try to invite them over for dinner, but the excuse I get sometimes, I am busy with school and I know for sure that finals starts in December. I guess, there is something that I am Thankful for and that is having two wonderful pets a cat and a dog, especially when they too act like children. I am also Thankful for my husband, in spite sometimes he has a lazy side around the apartment, he is really good to me and tries his best to bring in some income, even if it is not much. Well, again, I usually have this well thought out, but I just had to go with it. If I have any out of place words or sentence and misspelled words than I apologize for it. I will switch between Thanskgiving pictures and pictures of Stubby and Lucky. Oh, I forgot to mention, my cat Lucky is pure white with blue eyes and Stubby is Black and White. Have to love them both.

Enjoy reading.

Love,
Sara Marie McMurdie (Sara M. M.)